Monday, February 13th 2012
Air Supply

Yesterday my mother called. Her sister, HolyAuntie had read that last post. And HolyAuntie, via J-Mom,  said exactly what Mother T said in the comment section, plus a little more. (you followed that, right?)

So I called the doctor and got an unhelpful recording, and then decided I can do this. I CAN BREATHE. Surely with a little creativity and a lot of willpower I can do this.

And? i can. If I sit really still and don’t laugh or yell or cry and if I self -medicate with steam and heat and hot drinks… I can do this without any drugs. This is in itself a big improvement because that approach never would have worked two days ago.

Although I cant’ help but remember my childhood friend Stephanie. She was an only child and lived with her mom who was a scuba diver. There was an oxygen tank on the floor beneath the bar at her house where we would sit and have a snack and swing our feet. But she’d always casually say, “oh don’t kick that. it’s oxygen and it could explode.” and i can’t help but wonder if we had an oxygen tank under our kitchen bar area if it would have been helpful this week. not that we would have one of those. my kids would have kicked it until it exploded, “just to see.” But I’ve thought wistfully of all that gorgeous oxygen just sitting around unused and unappreciated in a tank in Stephanie’s house.

YEA! So, I’m practically fine. (I won’t do all the stuff I need to, Geekwif. I’m channeling into lists and leaving it there.)

It’s a snow day, so I don’t need to take kids to school, or pick them up or do anything besides sit and concentrate on happy oxygen rich thoughts.

I plan to serve leftovers for lunch. And for dinner. And then I’ll stare at fabric samples online. And get kids to do laundry. (this requires only whispering and pointing) And… no. I think that’s all.

Breathe in, breathe out, repeat.


2 Comments on “Air Supply”

Mother T
February 14th, 2012
7:42 am

You really worry me at times! I will give you a strong warning: if your blood oxygen level drops below 90% and stays that way for longer than 3 hours, you are causing yourself brain damage, as well as putting your kidneys in danger. You are a big girl, and get to make your own decisions and live with the consequences, but you, also, have children that you are responsible for caring and teaching. Think about this BEFORE you decided to do things your way.
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February 14th, 2012
2:49 pm

Sounds like a good, restful day. I especially like the part about staring at fabric samples online. :) Hope you’re feeling better very soon!
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